Spring?

Alex got baptized! What a great day that we shared with family and great friends. I hope it is one that she can remember forever. She's such a great girl!

Yesterday, Alex woke up and looked out the window. So dramatically, she said "Oh NO! The snow was all melted off the grass!" Yep, it snowed again. And is threatening snow today, and tomorrow...who knows how long? Spring seems to be so far away! Max has been reminding me for the past couple of days that it is officially Spring. Yep guys...this is Spring :)

Either way, we seem to get outside and brave the conditions. We had our last ski day yesterday, and it was great! It is such a fun way to spend time with the family. Brian is always up doing ski patrol on Thursdays, so I have been taking the kids up and we ski with him. He is getting the task of teaching Izzy - that's coming along...slowly!

I love my family so much! I often think about how maybe if there would have been one more child though. Especially when Max talks about how Dexter (his cat) is his only brother. It breaks my heart that the decision to have another child was taken away from me. I have to believe that it was not in the cards for me, and I am reminded to be grateful for the beautiful children that I have.

Being done with my treatments has been good and bad. I actually think I felt some security when I was going in weekly. I felt very proactive. For the past two weeks, I have really tried to get past this year and to become a true survivor. It has been mentally tough for me. I have a lot of fear. I'm angry that this fear has been instilled in me.  

I went in yesterday for my first "cancer marker". This is a blood test that is sent to the lab and it tests many things. If the number comes back above normal, it usually means that there's something bad stirring. All I really know is that the number I want to fall between is...1-40. As long as my "number" was within this range, things were looking good. The doc called yesterday with the results...39. I'm freaking out!