HAWAII! This is the celebration that Brian and I gave ourselves as a reward for a hard year for both of us. We took off for a week and went to Kauai. Truly the most beautiful place that I have ever been in my life! We were so lucky to get the weather we got. Six out of the seven days were absolutely perfect! Waking up with a little chill, watching the whales and dolphins jumping in the ocean. Sea Turtles and Monk Seals sunbathing on our beach. We had such a blast! I hope to make this a yearly venture.
Yes, it's true...it has officially been a year since this all began. I honestly can't believe it! I just had my last herceptin treatment this past Wednesday. It felt really good. Especially as I look down at my bruised arm, to know that I shouldn't have to go back for that again. However, I must say, a little bittersweet. The group of fighters that have gone to get treatments at the same time as myself for the past 6 months or so...most of them don't have the same luxury. So as they wished me well and were genuinely happy for me, I felt almost guilty. As terrible as the past year has been for me, I definitely had it the best out of the group. Many of my friends are terminal. Receiving chemotherapy only to contain their cancers. I will miss visiting with my friends. I hope I never let myself forget the feelings, people or things that I have seen and learned this past year.
I can't say that the fear of having the cancer come back somewhere in my body doesn't cross my mind every day. I know there is much to be said for a positive attitude. I believe in that and I also believe in mind over body. I will move forward with a positive attitude. I am a proud survivor! I have been through more than I ever imagined I could go through. I hope to build my own strength and confidence, and move it into the future. Because I see it there now. I have a beautiful life, and I am grateful for this life every day.
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