Catching up!

I can't believe it's been a month since my last entry! I was using my blog as a way to clear my mind, kind-of talk things through for myself during chemo. Now that I'm starting to get back to my old self, I have neglected writing.

Well, the past month has been extremely busy! Again, we went to Bear Lake in the trailer and camped with some friends. And we also headed back up to the cabin in Alpine with some friends and had a great time! My sister was here for a whole month...it was so nice to have her around. This summer has been full and we have made some great memories!

My hair is officially coming back. I haven't sported a scarf or hat in a couple weeks now. I don't know if I have a newfound confidence about myself and the strength I feel or what... but the stares and looks just don't bother me anymore.

I am going into the Cancer Center weekly right now for my IV Herceptin treatments. They aren't too bad...as long as the nurse can find a vein to go through (she never can!) The worst part of going in is the reminder. I start to feel sick just walking into the building. But seeing all those people hooked up to their chemo bags is a reality check. Something that helps me remember how lucky we are to have our health. I have such compassion for those people. The look in their eyes is so telling to me now. Wednesdays are always kind-of emotionally draining for me.

And the hormone pill I take daily... are you kidding me? I officially am going through menopause - hot flashes and all! One month down... 4 years and 11 months to go :)

I love my life. I am starting to feel such strength and really getting back to my old self. However, my old self will be different this time. Things I have gone through have taught me so much. I will never be the same. And I am thrilled with the change!