Summer is not really sneaking up on us... but I'm sure it is going to come one of these days! It's crazy that this May has been so rainy and cold. The only threat to summer is that the kids get out of school this next week. I can't believe Alex is going to be in 2nd grade. How time flies. The kids are getting so big... kinda makes me want to freeze time for a while and enjoy it!
It's been harder to enjoy the past few months, as my energies have been wrapped up in getting past this hurdle, getting better. I try to do all that I can in each day. Try to take the kids to the park, read an extra book at bedtime, listen to and really bond with them. Cancer has made me realize that nothing is guaranteed. Every day is a blessing. Not that I don't think I can beat this... I will. But it's impossible not to think of these things. I want to have memories and relationships that really mean something and matter!
It is so easy to take things for granted. I think that most of us do. Until we are faced with a challenge that rocks our core... shakes our securities. Our families, our friends, our blessings and our health. I have been blessed with all things great for much of my life. I wish to move past this challenge and have it in the past forever. But one thing I hope to carry with me is my love and gratitude for all around me... all that I am blessed with.
Been thinking of you. Wished I could have been at the race. You are brave and you make me realize that I take so much for granted. This post made me cry. Hang in there!!! Are you done with your treatments soon? I will be in Logan end of June beginning of July---would love to see you.
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hey girl :) congrats on the doing the race! we really miss you around here and i think about you a lot. i hope we see each other one of these days. thanks for letting me read your posts. they give me such intense insight into what some of my patients go through, and i try to bring that love and energy that you inspire in me to the bedside every day. (bedside nursing - i realize that sounded weird lol). hugs to you!
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