WOW! Waiting no longer. I anticipated this day since the diagnosis. Losing my hair was the biggest deal breaker of having cancer. Unfortunately, I was left with no choice in the matter. On day 17 following my first treatment, my hair started to come out. It was coming out in such clumps that I decided to take matters into my own hands. After a emotional morning of fighting the enevitable, I took the bull by the horns and with a few close friends had it buzzed off. I was shaking, I was so nervous! I don't care what anyone says, that was one of my darkest days so far.
I feel like the talk of the town. Wanting to escape it all, I went to Salt Lake for a night with a friend of mine. It was just what I needed... or so I thought. NOPE! I thought I was hanging tough. I thought I would be good to go with my head scarf in tow. That was not the case at all. By 5:00, I had had it! I couldn't look or pass by one more mirror. I didn't recognize myself! I couldn't handle one more stare or long look. I went out to the car by myself and completely lost it!
I am trying so hard to become OK with this, for I have to be! I will own this look and get my emotions in check, but it is taking time. Without actually losing my hair, I could never have imagined feeling this way. I feel so vulnerable now, and I am grateful for friends helping me "plug along"and jump over this giant hurdle!
That's one good look'n head! I'm proud of you Kristen. Wish I could have been there. Good luck tomorrow! I've been thinking about you a lot today and will continue to send good vibes your way for your treatment tomorrow. For what it's worth, you still look the same to me, just a different do.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you added pictures! I know that no one can really understand unless they've been through what you're going through...but you know we're all sincere when we tell you that with or without hair....you're still super hot! :) I love the fuzzy head, that's why I keep rubbing it! :) I pray it gets easier for you! Love ya......
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