I wasn't quite sure I was going to be able to rally for the big "race" today after I had my 4th round of chemo this past Tuesday. There is turning out to be truth to the warnings that the further along you get into the treatments, the harder it is on your body. I was pretty sure I wanted to just die this time around. It started out badly when I went into get the IV put in and I was doing everything I could to stop the tears. Then when the nurse asked me to go find my chair to sit in for the next 4 hours, I just broke down. It is getting so hard... this pattern of sickness and continuing havoc it is wrecking on my body and mind! I was struggling this week... and I am so happy that I was able to have something to look forward to - The Race for the Cure!
I had such a blast this weekend! Myself and several friends took off Friday night for an overnighter pre-race getaway. We had so much fun! I guess you never get too old to stay up half the night talking. Then this morning, we cruised over to the Gateway to meet up with the rest of Team KB. I wasn't quite up for winning the "race" as I had threatened. I'm so happy that some of my friends took it easy with me... it was such a great experience.
I have such a love for the people around me, cheering me on. Love for the women and men at the race, fighting the same fight. And even a strange gratitude for this nasty disease that knocks me down at times, but is giving me such a different outlook on people and life.
i read your post, and wanted to say something encouraging, but instead i am walking away feeling more inspired and helped than anything i could possibly say to you. thank you for your words, and especially your courage ... our prayers are with you.
ReplyDeleteps- i love your pictures. what great friends you have (and how great to see your parents. it's been a long time.)